"When we attempt to love out of our woundedness, then our loving is only violence. Love needs spaciousness in our minds to manifest and endure."
– Lama Rod Owens
Lately, through what I've been reading, conversations I've had, and energies I've been paying attention to, I'm realizing that my work is self-healing work.
I'm healing from growing up poor.
I'm healing from my parents getting divorced when I was two.
I'm healing from my dad not being around.
I'm healing from the embarrassment of having a gay dad when I was a teenager.
I'm healing from wrapping my identity up in being a college athlete.
I'm healing from my dad dying of AIDS.
I'm healing from being cut off for so long from love and connection.
I'm healing from my ego and my directionlessness and my anger.
I'm healing from my immaturity and shortsightedness and sarcasm and self-righteousness.
I'm healing from my lack of empathy and curiosity and vulnerability and compassion and presence.
And I'm healing by being in relationship, in community, in integrity.
Many conversations lately have helped me continue to heal.
I'm especially grateful to recent conversations with Sean Harvey, Future Cain, Kareen Griffiths, Neeraj Singh, Miriam Khalifa, Glenn Block, Jeremy Evans-Smith, David Motlagh, and Wendy Horng Brawer.
May we all continue to heal.